Friday, May 18, 2012

I Don't Think I Can Do This

This life.

Watching him.
 Lose his quality of life?


Watching her.
 Leave for good.
To start a new life.

 Wondering about her.
 Not knowing where she is.

But I will persevere because
this is what the Lord has asked of us.
Obedience.
Faithfulness.
Trust.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding; 
 in all your ways acknowledge him,
    and he will make your paths straight.
Proverb 3:5-6

Monday, May 14, 2012

Mother's Day is Wonderful and Carefully Complicated

What a treasure. Getting to spend Mother's Day with my mother. Here she is with two of her three kids. We missed you, big sister.
My parents graciously hosted a picnic at their place, about 5 miles from our house. We are so excited to have them in the neighborhood. Yes, neighborhoods are pretty big here in small town America.
 Celebrating my Mom with most of the grandkids. 
This was the wonderful part.
Here I am with eight of nine. Erik was at a cast party for his Shakespeare play, a year long class culminating in a week of performances.

The complicated part?

The four people who are part of our lives.
The other mothers.
The first mothers.
The birth moms.
The four women who did not get to celebrate in the same way that I did, feeling the love pour out of these amazing children who took a day to appreciate me. Yet, I appreciate them, those four women, so much more, because they chose life for these six precious souls who have enriched my life and made me a better person for having known them.
As I was watching the kids play in the yard and feeling sadness for those first mothers, an awesome sight appeared. The kids noticed it first. A random rainbow at the edge of a cloud. What a gift to remember that God has made a covenant with his people. He remembers us always. He cares for us and I am grateful that each one of us is part of his plan. These children? Those other mothers? He has them all in the palm of his hand.

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Pictures of the Week 5/6-5/12

  Crazy Driver
127 / 365
This wild woman will be a force to be reckoned with. 
In fact, she already is! :)
  Jammies and Kiwi
128 / 365
Way to end the day, boys. Sharing a plateful of kiwi fruit.
  The Beast
129 / 365
The limo has arrived. Our town is a better place for it!
  Pretty in Pink
130 / 365
Future fashion designer.
  Proud Parents
131 / 365
A photographer's nightmare. 
A perfect shot and all I had was my iPod.
  T-Ball Fun
132 / 365
Third base is hard work, don't you know.
Spinning the Ball
133 / 365
What a dad!!!

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

A Windy Day At The Beach

If we are near the ocean and the sun is shining, we persevere and enjoy ourselves in spite of the wind whipping sand in our eyes and pushing the waves back out to sea.
A friend loved this first picture so I thought I would try Sunday Snapshot again. I used my Nikon D80 on automatic. I have moved the manual to the camera bag believing it to be a good first step to learning about my camera. I edited the picture above with PicMonkey. The same picture below was edited with iPhoto.
I suppose the color is better in the first one but a matter of perspective?
 Or preference?
Automatic works for me most of the time.
 Drifted.
 Who needs toys.
Give it a go, Micah. I tried all kinds of colors in the editing.
My favorite picture of the day. Can't explain why.
The boys.
 I love the perspective of large, medium, small. 
It won't always be this way.



Ni Hao Yall

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Pictures of the Week 4/29-5/5

Mr. Blue Eyes
120 / 365
I'm sure glad he made it home safe and sound. 
It certainly takes two around here.
  Parking Lot Magic
121 / 365
What we do when we choose to stay outside 
instead of traipsing the aisles with Mom. 
Watching the carts go by?
  Gracing Our Table
122 / 365
We are enjoying some flowers we snagged 
from Grandma and Grandpa's house.
  Filling Those Big Shoes
123 / 365
Someday, my youngest will grow to fill 
those big shoes and it will all be over. 
In a blink of an eye.
  Boston Skyline
124 / 365
All of the sudden, I forgot I hadn't taken any pictures of the big buildings. 
Country Mouse visits City Mouse today.
  The Cream Banquet
125 / 365
We were invited to a banquet celebrating the accomplishments
 of 27 students who ran their own dairy for an entire school year. 
Lindsey was President of the class and made us very proud.
Our May Birthday
126 / 365
Kloey is twelve. She made a beautiful orange cake
 and we celebrated with a few friends, young and old-er.

Friday, May 4, 2012

What The Kids Think







Our Dossier for Little Miss Five Year Old is headed to China today. 
This adoption is cruising.

Southbound Adventures - Joshua

Thursday was our appointment at Boston Children's Hospital to take another look at Joshua's extra special heart. When you have a complicated heart, formed in a very special way, adapted to by your body for eight years, extra sets of eyes willing to float ideas around is an excellent idea.
 Our goal was 6:00 am. Not bad. 
We were scheduled to check in at 9:30 am.
 Sorry, I couldn't get the camera to work.
 Stopped for gas.
 Stopped for coffee.
 And some breakfast for the traveling companions.
Soon after, we had a bit of a decline that I thought was due to the early hour. Unfortunately, we got to see that breakfast all over again in mostly liquid chunky form. Had to sacrifice Cora's coat in the process. Bad mother complex set in because I did not have another set of clothes handy.
Being the Go-Forth parents that we are, (having waited two months for this appointment) we flew crawled over the Tobin Bridge into Boston carefully scanning the three sets of directions that I brought. 1) Hospital directions 2) Mapquest 3) Google Map = Three variations on the same theme.  Boston doesn't give you a whole lot of time to make decisions so in spite of all that preparedness, we landed in Cambridge, then downtown, until I called my personal "On*star" provider who gently guided us around Boston Common, past Fenway, and onto Longwood. We made it at 9:45 am.
No one blinked an eye. They seem pretty flex here at this city inside a city. Our echo tech gleefully put on a movie for Joshua. "Shrek", which would not have been my first choice. However, the tech admitted it was as much for himself as for Joshua. He was very nice and was happy to chat and explain what he was doing during the hour it took for a very detailed echo including 3-D which was way cool.
 Joshua enjoyed "Shrek" immensely.
 Blue away and red towards. Or is it the other way around?
Joshua and Cora spent hours in the waiting room. Echo, wait. Ekg, wait. Wait some more. Doctor, wait for Mom and Dad. The volunteers were incredible and I was grateful to feel good about leaving my kids basically unattended in the waiting room. Clowns came by.
His smile LIGHTS up a room. 
My life would have been incomplete without it. 
I am sure of that now.
 They told jokes. They sang. And they danced.
 Boy, did they dance.
At long last we met with the doctor around 12:30 who acted as though she had all the time in the world for us. Our appointment had been scheduled for 11:00. She missed meetings and probably lunch without a blink of an eye. I've realized I need to take pictures of Joshua with all the doctors we see because he is quite confused when I tell him we are going somewhere. Time for a doctor scrapbook.
 He got his own turn to listen.
Fun when you try to take a picture,
 and end up taking a picture
 of yourself taking a picture. 
Right?
Due to our previous bout of familiarizing ourselves with the surroundings (a/k/a LOST) we managed to wind our way out of the city. And I mean winding as in not a straight line.  Over the river, through the buildings, and back over the river again.
Things deteriorated in the back seat nicely. In the front seat, we processed and texted, talked, checked e-mails, made phone calls and looked forward to getting some food. Because we sort of forgot about that after the expelling in the back seat earlier.
We landed at my favorite semi-fast food gourmet eatery where I most definitely have a frequent flyer card.
Bonus! This cheeky little girl was waiting for us at the restaurant and we got to bring her home for the weekend.